Becoming Pagan with a buddha on top - Part 14

So I knew I believed in something, but I wasnt sure what exactly. I was 27. I had met my husband Chris and moved into an apartment with Lexy and him. Ironic it was rented to us by the yelling guys church. At this time I started my own jewelry business. I knew I wanted my demographic to be pagans and celtic ren faire types. So I came up with the name Celtic Goddess jewelry. Over the next 7 years I built up my reputation as an excellent online provider of really nice pagan jewelry. I drifted back into paganism.

I went to a pagan family picnic. I vendored at pagan festivals. It was good fun. the people were really nice and I had a lot in common with most of them. But I still felt empty. I had no guidelines, and felt like I had no purpose.

It was also during this time that I became good friends with a group of online ladies from a popular website. After the first few years of talking to them online, we decided to start doing "get togethers" at one of the ladies houses. We were a good solid mix of Christians and Pagans. It was very interesting! But one thing was sure, we all loved each other, accepted each other. My friend Carole and her husband Jerry are fascinating people. They opened thier house to like 15 strange women, a lot of us pagans. Jerry was an ex pastor at what I think was a Southern Baptist church. Both of them brimmed with love an acceptance. You couldnt help but love them. It was the first time I had experienced such love and acceptance from ALL the people in that group. It was one of the best most positive experiences I have ever had. If you have ever seen "the Grinch that Stole Christmas', When I left that house, I felt like my heart had "grown three sizes that day". It was rejuvanating and refreshing. Mentally, physically and mostly spiritually.

shortly thereafer I began to read alot of books about Buddhism. I actually read a book called "Anger" by the Dali Lama. Then I read a book called "Buddha and Jesus as brothers". funny thing is, most people assume that you cant be a Christian and a Buddhist, but Buddhism really isnt a "religion". and you indeed CAN incorporate Buddhist philosopy into Christianity with no doubt.

But at the time I was Pagan Buddhist. I started sellling my jewelry and art work at a local yoga studio. I met a ton of environmentally consicous people. It was nice. I felt better. I felt some peace. But I still felt like I was missing something. I just didnt know what exactly. I still felt empty. lost. burnt out...